I Am Not My Story

by Zen Gardner

Deeply rooted, convoluted, my story took its form
Weaving and deceiving all, the characters were born
“False appearing real”, the chequered meme within its spell
As the image wound its hungry way and lies began to gel

How story loves to reinforce, for self and others’ pleasure
Not seeing that from selfsame point was made that story’s measure
The masquerade continues on, appearing unabated
While all along the Truth inside was scoffed and underrated

The stories change and rearrange, depending on the weather
Who needs what, will I survive? Co-dependent tales together
Should I play or should I stay? Should I do this or that…
Decisions made for which we paid the billing as we sat

Stories are so int’resting and often very clever
No matter if they’re true or not, we’re in this play together
Now subtle more is what’s in store when Truth It starts to surface
Conflict sure, but what allure, a grin instead of grimace

There’s something there, from who knew where, and I just could be him
Something deep that ever seeps and seeks to fill to brim
But wait, my story’s crumbling, in fact it’s quite the shock
Tis’ not as played, my cool parade – my strut began to mock

Defeat is triumph backwards, as if there’s aught to fear
The self is story on the loose, a lie yet held so dear
Thoughts and stories coalesce to try and reach success
But thankfully, we come to learn, the story’s not our best

I finalize, with final eyes, that stories all are fake
Memes and mimes just spewing lines with ego on the take
What always waits ‘yond conscious gates is something quite amazing
Creation’s aide, another grade, and this is where I’m grazing

Zen Gardner is an impactful and controversial author and speaker, whose personal story has caused no small stir amongst the entrenched alternative pundits. His book You Are the Awakening met rave reviews and is available on amazon.com. You Are the Awakening examines the dynamics of the awakening to a more conscious awareness of who we are and why we are here – dynamics which are much different from the programmed approach of this world we were born into. Zen Gardner does not currently offer public contact details.

Cover image credit: DonnaH